||[Jan. 12th, 2004|09:05 pm]
|||||The Clash - I'm So Bored With The U.S.A||]|
i cannot bring myself to study right now, i've been trying and trying but everytime i look at the book i feel like i'm going to vomit. that is not a good feeling at all.... And i really need to know this stuff if i'm not going to fail. My sister told me not to study because mr. G is a crazy man and his exams are impossible, but i did alright on them last year, and my brother always did good and he studied for them. Arggggg.... i just really don't wanna do this god damn stuff.
i'm feelin really lonely right now... i hate when i get like this, its the most god-aweful feeling. i just feel like there is nobody to talk to and nothing to do. Usually when i feel this way i play the drums but my mother would kill me if she knew i wasn't studying. I think i just need a really really really good friend to talk to.... i dunno if its that i don't have any or if that i don't know which one to pick....
jared was juggling a lot today, and he told me i should give it a try, so i have been and i'm decent for my first real try. I can get it goin for a lil bit, i just gotta practice a lot and i should get pretty good at the rate i'm goin.
i can't wait for my hat to come in and hopefully i can get those canes soon too.... i finally feel like i'm becoming me, and finding my identity and being able to express myself. I like it a lot.
oh well... back to trying to force myself to study.... fun fun.